I realised recently that I had not written for a while. This was not a conscious decision to stop, more of it being ‘something I must get around to’. Maybe I didn’t feel the need to write to help me grieve which is why I started in the first place. A lot has happened sinceContinue reading “It’s been a while…”
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Legacy
I am four days and 18 miles into a virtual marathon, the target being 26 miles in 7 days. This is without a doubt the most running I have even done in a week. Its hard work but a great way to motivate me to kickstart my 2021 fitness drive. If I don’t break myselfContinue reading “Legacy”
Crimbo Limbo
Christmas Day went better than expected. I visited dads grave with Mum in the morning where we both had tears. The flowers from the funeral had all died and the soil level had dropped at one end causing a muddy puddle to appear, it looked a sorry state which did not help my emotions. TheContinue reading “Crimbo Limbo”
Christmas Eve Eve…
My home town of Peterborough, UK is now in Tier 4 restrictions. This is the highest level of restrictions and is due to the emergence of a new hyper infectious variant of the Covid 19 virus. The timing of the implementation of the tighter rules means many peoples Christmas plans have had to be rippedContinue reading “Christmas Eve Eve…”
Lockdown Isolation…
Not me, but my son…for the second time. The first was when his flat mate at uni developed Covid symptoms. Once it was over we packed him up and brought him home as all his classes had moved online. This time it was a colleague at the fast food restaurant he works at who testedContinue reading “Lockdown Isolation…”
A year of firsts…
Yesterday was my 42nd birthday, half way if I am lucky..that gets you thinking. I booked the day off with my partner, luckily it coincided with the relaxing of some of the Covid related restrictions so we were able to enjoy breakfast at a local cafe. We then picked up the dog and headedContinue reading “A year of firsts…”
The morning after…
Yesterday we buried my dad. When asking how a funeral went, the reply is often along the lines of ‘as good as these things can be.’ If I look beyond the sadness of saying goodbye to day, the funeral was perfect. Well almost, it rained! The days either side had clear skies and sunshine, typical!Continue reading “The morning after…”
The night before…
Tomorrow is the day of Dads funeral. I am both dreading it and needing it. Since the date was booked it feels like I have been walking in a fog. I am still struggling to maintain concentration which is planting the seeds of doubt about my ability to use this as a turning point. IContinue reading “The night before…”
Chapel of Rest
This afternoon I went with my mum to the Chapel of Rest to see Dads body laid out in the coffin. I am not sure what if any comfort this ritual brings. To see my mum crying next to the body of the man she was married to for 52 years broke my heart. IContinue reading “Chapel of Rest”
Here we go…
It’s been a week and a half since dad died of blood cancer and only now am I feeling able to put down in words how I am feeling. Dads illness lasted about a year, that we knew of, and having been told in early 2020 he old had days to live before he someContinue reading “Here we go…”
Total Wellbeing 